Hope for the future (after struggling)

I often wondered if there's ever been a perfect family, I've always longed for undividness and sought stability... A flower taught me how to pray, but as I grew that flower changed, she started failing in the wind, like golden petals scattering and I miss you dandelion, and even love you, and I wish there was a way for me to trust you... But it hurts me every time I try to touch you... And I miss you dandelion and even love you...

I gravitated towards a patriarch so young predictably, I was resigned to spend my life with a maze of misery. A boy and girl befriended me, we're bonded through despondency, I stayed so long but finally I fled to save my sanity... And I miss you little sis, and little brother... And I hope you'll realize I'll always love you, and although you're struggling, you will recover, you're gonna make it, and I miss you little sis and little brother...

So many I considered closest to me, turned on a dime and sold me out dutifully, althought that knife was chipping away at me, they turned their eyes away and went home to sleep...

And I missed a lot of life but I'll recover, though I know you really like to see me suffer... And I wish that you and I'd forgive each other...

'Cause I miss you, and really loved you, I tried so hard but you drove me away, to preserve my sanity... And I found the strenght to break away and FLY...

To be continued